What is it that makes you happy without letting you into toil?

I listen to Music and write...fr me through out my life no one was there for me ever...i kept to myself ......eventually i got addicted to music .... it just gives me tranquility ...i write when i am in mood ..i write poems .... my hard luck has been like this that i never encountered true ppl ..all were fake and false most of the times.... then i found myself trying to please everyone maybe to make everyone like me ..i used to and still try to please my family ..i dont know for wat reason.....sometimes i just want to vanish and live at a place where i can meet nice people who respect and love me as much as i would do to them.....